the day...

31st of jan was great..met the long time no see pilot fren..who's currently training in sG..had sushi with the 'bruneians'..then played pool..then me and hannah..went shop~ hahaha ok la..we had hair extensions..she got 1 red and i got 2 pink..ahah i like it but i wish i had purple though..a bit ah lien..hahah but first time extension..happy with it..haha now i'm playing with my new hair..will do highlight some day..lolx..

was quite moody today..rot at home whole day..went out dinner with eldest sis and bro in law..then went home..then had a long talk with another 'long lost' fren..haha was a bit unhappy..cos actually thought i'll be out wit the bf..but he end up with his sis so bo pian..if i knew this earlier then i might go to another fren's place to drink...but i end up rotting at home...why today took so long to end? haiz..~~~ so damn moody right now . .

suddenly miss going back brunei so much...my frensss are theree...for cny..wat am i doing here? i wonder...wana go back but don think can...cos got exam to prepare...SIEN whyyyy...haiz..at least i'm happy with my pink colored hair..(extension).. i wana go back brunei...i miss brunei...but i'm worry bout my assignmetn and exam....i am so down now...

i wana go out wit the bf to his fren's place and play cards..gamble la..i was stopped..cos it was too late and she doesn't allowed..she's the housekeeper..i'm turning 21 soon and i am stil being districted from this and that...suddenly i recalled wat my fren told me..i'm big enough to take care of my life and my own business..i shud'nt be restricted by her..i shudn't be controlled by her..but too bad..i stay with her...i have to listen to her..when i was like keep begging her to let me out..eventhough it's late like 10pm..she don allow..she keep saying no..and if i asked again..she wont let me out next time...wtH...at that very moment i wished i could move out of the house right away...it's not like i'm going alone..the bf can drive me home too..and she stil don allowed...i'm stuck in a cage like a little bird...becos tomoro and sunday i'll be at home for the house cleaning thing for cny...then my bf wil back to his hometown from 5th to 17th..i wont be seeing him for so long...miserable and terrible...so damn long...i onli wish to spend some time wit him...i thought today at least we would be going out for movie or wat..or dinner..but no..no more...then tomoro will meet him for dinner..IF POSSIBLE...cos scare something cropped up then cannot make it..i scare i wil be too tired for tomoro dinner after all the cleaning..i dono..i jus wana go out...i wana spend time wit him...i planned for a movie at least b4 he went back...

i wan movie..kbox...i wan to jump sea...i wan beach..i wan to see stars....i wan to be alone..leave me alone...