After all i'm still not good

Last night’s dinner was great~! Not that I went to dine at restaurant or wat..i was at my bf’s place. And he cooked for me. Hahah so nice~ This was the first time he cooked for me..a complete meal with dessert =D we both ate to the fullest we can..haha and there’s stil some watermelon left though..wasn’t able to finish..haha but it was really a great meal for me =) really happy to have such a nice bf..haha and I never cooked for him yet cos I doNo how to cook good food..lolx

Had plans with frens earlier..so after the meal we both went to his fren’s place and other frens were there to gamble for fun..however, my mum was not happy =( at first when I told her about it..she was like ok lik tat..and I told her I’ll be back latest at 1am..then when I was bout to leave the house..then she said..”I’m leaving tomoro la..outsiders are more kin than mum ah..” she used an angry tone..then I looked at her expression..she was really angry like that..then I got shocked a bit..then like unhappy in the heart..lik got something stab into my heart..then she said..”don’t be home too late!” then I said ok..then I left..but I was feeling bad…=(

Perhaps she’s right..sometimes I feel like I hang out with frens more than family..i told bf about it then he asked me don’t go la gamble la like tat..meaning after meal I go home lor..but then I was like..feeling like to gamble..cos told the frens that I’ll be there to join them for rummy, a game which I longing to play and finally have the chance..but. haiz

I noe..game can be played anytime..but then mum leaving tmr and I’m stil so stubborn want to go play..in the end bf said I decide myself..then I said..ok lor..go play til 1am then go home..planned like that..but never..cos in the end played and waited for another 3 frens coming..waited for like 2 hours? Ya 2 hours..then after that played awhile then I went back..when I got home it was 4am already..i was locked out..then I sms my 2nd sis to ask her to help me unlashed the door..while hoping she could wake up..i was waiting outside at the corridor..if she never opened I would not mind waiting until 6am or wat..but she opened in the end..and I got in..changed and slept..i was really tired n sleepy actually..

Then I noe that mum n bro would be leaving back to brunei early in the morning but I dono wat time..so I also did not set my alarm..when I woke up at 8 45am..my 2nd sis told me they jus left at 8 30am to the airport..so I was lik…ok then..wasn’t able to send them off too =( so sad..i guess mum n bro would be disappointed at me for being such a daughter/sister..

When they were here since Saturday night..i did nt company them on Sunday and Monday..Sunday they went out with uncles and so I went out with my frens as well til night..then Monday we were all home whole day..then around 4plus they wanted to go out but I was sleepy at that moment..so never company them also..but when they got home I was there and talked to them and ate durian together..this trip I seldom company them that is…even if I was in brunei I don think I did company them like I shud..seems like I wasn’t part of the family..haiz =( I am not a good daughter/sister, after all.