so ironic

i guess not much ppl wil read this blog..
i tried to blog in the livejournal blog..too bad..not working..cant blog dono why...hai~

i failed to be a good daughter..i failed to be a good sister...i failed in everything i do..i failed to be a good student..i dont understnad the lectures in class..i always do my assignmetn and study for my exam at the very last minute..so sad...hai~ i got exam this coming sat and i haven start preparing anything yet..like shit..and i got work tomoro...hai~ so tired but i stil wana blog...

i promised to stay home but i never do..it jus so happened that there are more than one task that needs to be done within the same period of time..but it's also my own problem that i couldn't prioritize my tasks..it's like..i would like to do both tasks but i onli can manage to do well in one...shit ah..........why am i such a failure?

exam around the corner..what am i farking doing here now.? I AM SO FARKING SAD =( FARKING STRESS AND EVERYTHING...

i wish to be alone..i wan to leave everything behind me.....and be alone...
perhaps i shud do smtg meaningful? i dono la..i'm such an idiot..

well..those are the sad thigns...

happy ones... are the ones wiht my beloved darling and my brunei frens..

jus celebrated my dear's bday yesterday and the nite b4...i rili felt that i love him more...cant blif the feeling is back..that kind of feeling which i thought i've lost...i thought i couldn't love someone more..i thought this kind of feeling would be forever lost..but it actually returns..and i'm really loving my bf now a lot...i'm glad =) but there is stil one bad thing bout it..the more u love a person..the more u wil mind wat ever he said..even if jus one small remark.. hai~

and the week b4..we celebrated my junior's bday..everyone was so happy and we took lots of photo..

SIENNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!
WAT THE HELL IS LIFE?! I AM SO UNHAPPY WITH MYSELF..i cant do anything well..i planned to do things the way i wanted but it oways become the opposite result! i cant blame anyone cos i'm the farking person to be blamed.. me myself..